Metta, Meditation, Positive Thoughts, and Focus: It Can Really Make Shit Happen

In February and March, Barbara wanted us to practice metta for ourselves and also for others. Heads up this is a little sad.

Here is a limited edition story- nobody besides my yoga family has heard this until now.

“So here’s a story. I’ve been trying to meditate and do my metta’s on a regular basis. At first I was feeling like “OK I’m doing this, but I don’t really understand the power of prayer.” In other words, I was doing it but also wondering kind of like “what’s the point?” So I read the first two paragraphs of “Loving Kindness.” It totally made sense and then I began to understand the point. On Monday my dog had to get brought back to the vet for her cushings disease. I’ve been kind of fed up with the situation- I probably would have put her down in December because she’s costing us $1000+ a month and making our lives really difficult. So on Monday I was expressing to my hubby how sad I was, and wondering what the point was to keeping her alive- She’s on 4 different drugs, and she’s in pain or high as a kite. Her eyes don’t even look right anymore. “She doesn’t even lick my face anymore!” I said to him. “She used to try to shove her whole tongue in my mouth. I just want my dog to lick my face again. She used to love kisses.” Last night I sat on the living room floor, starting to meditate, and she was doing what she does- pacing and looking sad, her eyes all weird looking- and I couldn’t really meditate because she was pacing and crawling around me. So I figured instead of ignoring my sick dog to clear my thoughts I would just do my love and kindness metta and offer it to her. I started to think it in my head, then I was mumbling it and she sat on my lap and I pet her while I repeated it. I had her head in my hands and we were nose to nose and for about three-five minutes she started to lick my face, for the first time in 5 months. She even tried to shove her tongue in my mouth (lol so gross) while I was repeating it. The minute I lost my focus and thought about taking her picture or telling people about it, I lost the experience. She wandered off and went back to being sick and not-herself. Anyway, it wont always be that obvious- but I really get the point now. Thanks for listening, friends!”

Here is what I said to her:

May you be filled with loving kindness, may you be be peaceful and at ease, may you be free from pain and suffering, and care for yourself and others joyfully. 

Namaste.

One thought on “Metta, Meditation, Positive Thoughts, and Focus: It Can Really Make Shit Happen

  1. That was a really beautiful story Jenn. If it gets to the point where you feel you need to “do something” I have some information I can share on home euthanasia. That’s what I did for my baby and it was the best possible decision. It’s not cheap, but so worth it. They sedate them to help them to relax before giving them the actual heart stopping drug. She died peacefully in my arms and in her home. No fear, no pain. ❤

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