In February and March, Barbara wanted us to practice metta for ourselves and also for others. Heads up this is a little sad.
Here is a limited edition story- nobody besides my yoga family has heard this until now.
“So here’s a story. I’ve been trying to meditate and do my metta’s on a regular basis. At first I was feeling like “OK I’m doing this, but I don’t really understand the power of prayer.” In other words, I was doing it but also wondering kind of like “what’s the point?” So I read the first two paragraphs of “Loving Kindness.” It totally made sense and then I began to understand the point. On Monday my dog had to get brought back to the vet for her cushings disease. I’ve been kind of fed up with the situation- I probably would have put her down in December because she’s costing us $1000+ a month and making our lives really difficult. So on Monday I was expressing to my hubby how sad I was, and wondering what the point was to keeping her alive- She’s on 4 different drugs, and she’s in pain or high as a kite. Her eyes don’t even look right anymore. “She doesn’t even lick my face anymore!” I said to him. “She used to try to shove her whole tongue in my mouth. I just want my dog to lick my face again. She used to love kisses.” Last night I sat on the living room floor, starting to meditate, and she was doing what she does- pacing and looking sad, her eyes all weird looking- and I couldn’t really meditate because she was pacing and crawling around me. So I figured instead of ignoring my sick dog to clear my thoughts I would just do my love and kindness metta and offer it to her. I started to think it in my head, then I was mumbling it and she sat on my lap and I pet her while I repeated it. I had her head in my hands and we were nose to nose and for about three-five minutes she started to lick my face, for the first time in 5 months. She even tried to shove her tongue in my mouth (lol so gross) while I was repeating it. The minute I lost my focus and thought about taking her picture or telling people about it, I lost the experience. She wandered off and went back to being sick and not-herself. Anyway, it wont always be that obvious- but I really get the point now. Thanks for listening, friends!”
Here is what I said to her:
May you be filled with loving kindness, may you be be peaceful and at ease, may you be free from pain and suffering, and care for yourself and others joyfully.